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He's been distant. I know it's my fault. I meant it though. That's one of my New Year resolutions. To be unapologetic. To live every day like I mean it. To worry about making only one person happy, my daughter. Not even my husband, because I've seen where his heart lies.
I want another daughter or maybe a son. I will find another way to do that. Even if it's me adopting. I wish I knew someone who would do it for me, with me. If Annie wasn't knocked up, she'd be my top candidate. I've seen the way she sees my daughter, the way she sees her own kids. She'd know that it was Henry and mine. She'd step back and be an aunt. That's just how she is. She's my best friend and I know, if she could, she'd help.
Is this what women feel like when they can't have a child? Lonely and unimportant...because that's all I feel anymore.
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